I am myself and my circumstance

"And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen"

I was listening to Taylor Swift's Fifteen (yes, I gave up on this one) and right when I heard these verses I started to wonder if the girl is even right. When I was young I had my whole life planned, I knew what I wanted to do and who I wanted to be. But do I know who I am supposed to be now that I am way older than fifteen?

I guess not.

I didn't foresee that uncertainty regarding my life and my persona would get bigger the older I got. Maybe we are not as powerful as we think we are and plans and willings are not enough. As
José Ortega y Gasset, Spanish philosopher, said, "I am myself and my circumstance". Does that mean that fate plays a big part in our lives? I want to think that I have control over mine but honestly, how many doors will close for us and how many will open? How will we know if our plans meet the circumstances?

Oh life... but hey, isn't it exciting?

"It doesn't matter which side of the fence you get off on sometimes. What matters most is getting off. You cannot make progress without making decisions," Jim Rohn


Sometimes I wish I didn't have to make decisions. As if only one option was possible, so I could not blame myself if the latter was wrong. I find it hard sometimes to deal with the resposibility of chosing one thing over the other.


But I just know I have to get off that fence...

Can society be mass produced?

I have always felt intrigued by the human being, and mostly, by how difficult it is to measure it both as an individual or as a group. I guess that is one of the reasons why I love living abroad so much. You get to know a different culture, different costumes and different people. All of them have something you can learn from. And everyone is worth getting to know, because everyone can enrich your life with new perspectives and ways of thinking.

However, I have been back home in Spain for longer than a month and I am impressed by how different I am from the rest and, specially, by how different they make me feel because I simply do not do "what everyone does."

I am starting to think that society may be mass produced. Or maybe that's not society?